fucking forgetfulness

I always fucking forget how shit a friend you are, you selfish asshole. Please, by all means lean on me when you need it... But heaven forbid I'm ever upset. No, I'm not fucking allowed to be cause my life is fucking tip top, hey ? Because once again, stupid ole me fucking forgot that you're the only one with problems. You're the only one with a shit life. But that's cool, cause Im just being a moody bitch, hey. It's not like I fucking work hard for anything I've gotten in my life. Nah, I never worked three jobs a time, I just got given everything. So don't fucking assume that my life is awesome when I sacrifice my whole fucking social life for five days of working and four says of university. I don't have the freedom that you do, and quite frankly I don't think I ever will. But sure, go out, get drunk and then condescend to me. I forgot how much I fucking LOVE that shit. Thanks for reminding me.... At least that's one thing I can thank you for. Having an awesome night crying myself to sleep and verbally abusing you in my mind. I'm selling popcorn if anyone wants front row seats to the movie premier of 'my shitty life' starring my all time favorite actor ' 'Go fuck yourself'. Over and out.

Consistent oblivion

Sonder: 

n. the realisation that each random passerby is living a life as vivid and complex as your own- populated with their own ambitions, friends, routines, worries and inherited craziness- an epic story that continues invisibly around you like an anthill sprawling deep underground, with elaborate passageways to thousands of lives that you'll never know existed, in which you might appear once, as an extra sipping coffee in the background, as a blur of traffic passing on the highway, as a lighted window at dusk.

-A-

Like machines do

Beautifully dark and twisted things

Sleeping with Satan

Having a messy life isn't necessarily a bad thing. I'm learning to envy people less and be happy with what I've got. Why do we always seek to be better?

-A-

Shallow hypocrisies

Oh, old friend. Who are you trying to fool? If your words and actions contradict then your act is over. 

Oh, old friend. You're a fool. Who are you trying to convince with your words? When all you want is sparkly minerals, not their representation of love.

Oh, old friend. You think I'm the fool. Here's a genuine Fuck You.

People just need to stop trying to be two different people. 

-Ash&A-

Words

Once again, I have bitten off more than I can chew.

I

am

just

so

god

damn

exhausted.

I have no days to myself and I'm beginning to feel it. 

Anywho, I have one and a half assignments left as of now. Monday night I am going to sleep like a baby! At least this is giving me something to look forward to. Wow, I lead a sad, sad life looking forward to more than four hours of sleep.

Anybody have a spare bottle of Vod?

-A-